… and so I did!
One day, I woke up asking myself 1000 questions about my so called “employee” status and did the math. I did not like the results.
Crystal, a fellow blogger, could not describe my feelings any better:
“[…] I was terrified of cutting loose the security and comfort that comes with having a salary but the reality of my situation — of all of your situations, actually — is that money comes and goes. It’s like water through your fingers. Keep what you need in a canteen at your side, enough so that you’ll never go thirsty, and then go forth and work hard at what you love. There will always be more water, and there will always be more money. And if you feel like it may take a while to get to that next stream to refill, than learn how to make your water — or dollars — stretch until you get there. Just don’t let your fear or uncertainty be what extinguishes you ever taking risks in the first place. Don’t get stuck setting up shop near that first river you come upon, failing to ever go forward and see what other, bigger rivers lie on the horizon. Believe me, that first river can be mighty comfortable, but I think sometimes it takes “uncomfort” to shape who you are and make you stronger, more resilient and ultimately, more happy.
Will times get tough at least through this next year? You bet. There will be days I’m sure will feel excruciating, days when I’ll feel like I have no money at all, days I’ll wonder what the hell I’m doing up and quitting my cush job in This Economy, days I might actually consider buying one-ply instead of two-ply bathroom tissue just to save money. But I will always remind myself of what the suffocating alternative is. I may not have a lot of money in the near future, but I’m going to have the freedom to pursue what I want to make happen, not what anybody else’s vision or dream is. And that’s important to remember. No one said taking risks was easy — that’s why they’re risks, after all. If they were a piece of cake, then everyone would want a slice.
But don’t think that it was easy walking away from my job, my paycheck, security, stability and all those other rooted tendrils that ensnared me for the last two years in a web of oblivious complacency.
All my life I’ve followed a conventional path: I graduated with good grades from high school, went to college, grad school and got a job that steadily allowed me to pay rent, bills, shop and save. All those fun “life” necessities. I know a few people who don’t and/or didn’t enjoy being college students. Well let me rephrase that: They enjoyed the parties and “good times”, but didn’t enjoy the studying and the classes. They feel disappointed in themselves for following the structure traditionally set up for them. For me, it wasn’t structure that made me go to college or grad school. At the risk of sounding nerdy, I loved being a student and debating with professors, going to class, studying, and writing pages and pages of lit analysis.
But I don’t love holding down a job just to have a job. That’s where I whipped around and looked Structure straight in the face. “What if you’re not for me? What if I’m confident that I can make a damn good living without you?” I asked it during the summer of last year. It laughed at my naivety, telling me to stick it out for another year at work. So I doubted myself, and followed its advice. And now, a year later, I’ve caught up to Structure and told it I don’t want it leading me around anymore. I’d step off its track and venture out into the forest to forge my own, unknown way. My success and earnings will now rest solely on my shoulders and the effort I put forth. From here on out, I will not get paid to “just show up.” That fact alone is one of the most empowering feelings I have ever experienced […]
That’s not to say I’m an eternal optimist. If anything, I’m too much of a realist.
It would be naive to assume that every dream pays off, that every hope not reached in the end wouldn’t be laden with some form of regret for what was given up. But I’m willing to accept the consequences. I firmly believe that each one of us is in charge of our own destiny. Fate alone only takes you so far.”
I’ve been doing the same job for four years. I like it but I think it’s time for me to switch to what I really want and like: Real Estate and get the chance to be my own boss. (Discover what it’s like, what I’m capable of, transfer my set of competencies to a different discipline…worst case scenario, job hunting will be re-initialized, right? 😛 )
So if you are in a phase of your life where you are thinking your career over ask yourself: “What do I really want to do that I really like?” That’s when you come to write down your resignation letter and hand it to your manager with a big smile… You get some mixed feelings at first but will rest assured that you made the right choice.
Off to my new adventure! Good luck to everyone!
Your real estate agent, (Waw…I like that! )